Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Easier?

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"Does is get easier?"

I'd say, for me, that question doesn't really sit well.  There are just too many variables in my own experience and as a whole, not one single story or perspective is the same.

The knee-jerk reaction?  No, it doesn't get any easier, not really.  But the reflective answer (with regard to some things) is that time does heal to a degree.

As a birthmother, that hole in my heart is there but not as debilitating as it once was.  So in essence, day to day life has certainly become easier. But I honestly feel that's largely due to the openness I have with his family and knowing beyond doubt that he's healthy and happy.

Growing up as an adopted child I didn't struggle with a lot of the issues that some of my other adopted friends dealt with, though I know my parents had extra concerns with regard to my health or behavior.  ADHD and other behavior problems seem prevelant with adoptees, and that can be a life-long struggle for everyone. I always felt loved and even when I finally met my birth-mother I didn't feel abandoned or any struggles of the heart with regard to her giving me up.

Adoption is such a personal and profound issue that I don't beleive it can be neatly boxed into a yes or no answer.  What has gotten easier for me may be even more devestating for someone else in the same situation.   I think it's such a simple question, that doesn't get asked often- and I most certainly think it's one of the most important we can ask (and answer) ourselves.